A few thoughts on our INNER CIRCLE:
(Warning: 🤚 🚫 ⚠️ long post alert)

In May of this year I started to pay extra attention to how I FELT after I hung up the phone with various people. ..I would say after I “hung out” with them IRL, but this is 2020 after all. …😷 (mask emogi).

Anyways, I noticed one day after a conversation with someone that I felt like the weakest, frailest, wounded little bird that was barely scraping by.

YIKES #notgood #ouch

So I just got curious about it. No judgement, just noticing (“hmm interesting. ..what’s up with that?”) 🤔

I then recalled a time in the past when I left an interaction feeling like the biggest idiot on the 🌍 . ..like, “how did I even get dressed this morning?” LOL

Later that week I said to my friend:
“Whenever I talk to __________ (different person) I feel like the most brilliant, hilarious, individual in the whole world, and also kindve weird- but cool.” 😂 🤓

If we’re not careful we internalize how we think people view us, and start to view ourselves the same way- seeing ourselves through their eyes.

The same goes with how we’re treated- especially if there’s an abuse dynamic present. It’s not unusual to see someone that’s been abused start to abuse themselves.

“The voices on the outside become the inside.”
-source unknown (to me)

I know this sounds SO BASIC, but it really can reveal a lot about what the outer world WE’VE CREATED is mirroring back to us.

It can infiltrate literally every aspect of our lives: education, career, body image, perceived competence, relationships, etc.

By this point you may be asking:

• “Why do you let other people influence you?”

• “Why do you care what they think?”

…and I agree 💯 that those are valid questions.

There’s absolutely healing work to be done there, but that’s outside the scope of this post- and honestly we just cant do it all in a day. This is more about what to do in the meantime 🧐

So much of these ideas are subconscious, and can gradually sneak into our 🧠 over months or years- especially if we’ve lost a few key people that were a positive presence in the past.

STRONG/SMART PEOPLE ARE NOT IMMUNE TO THIS.

Its unreasonable to think we will be on our A-game every minute. ..being a human is hard sometimes.

All the more reason to choose people that support us and are actually ON OUR SIDE (no “frenemies” please).

Im SO grateful for those that bring out the best in me, even when I feel like I left her WAY behind (aka in a zumba class somewhere, or at the beach? 🤷‍♀️😂).

That is all. 🙏❤