The willingness to SEE

Greetings from my backyard where I did a photo shoot with my new little geode 😄

I just wanted to pop on here and share my experience of being immensely rewarded by being willing to sit with my own “stuff” just now.

I don’t necessarily mean rewarded with 💎 💵 🏆 although it could look like that.

I’m talking about shifting my external reality by taking radical (painful) ownership of my internal state.

I’ve had so much resistance to deciding on an insurance carrier. I knew there was more to the story about why it was so unnecessarily difficult, but I couldn’t figure out what it was.

I mean, I hit every little bump in the road (phone tag, agent out sick, my own barriers and distractions, etc). ..it was past the point of ridiculous.

I knew intuitively there was a lesson in there somewhere, but all I could come up with was:

“3D sh** is stupid and annoying AF” 😂

Turns out that wasn’t it 🙄🤷‍♀️

Alas, I would just have to travel the road…

Well, yesterday it hit me. I saw it.

It’s something that’s been running “low level” in my life for years. A trigger that I could no longer ignore.

It was coming up BIG to be seen and healed.

I could face it head-on or continue to avoid (subconsciously before, but now I couldn’t UNSEE it) 🤦‍♀️

I took a break from the situation and sat down with a scrap of notebook paper, and wrote out a “prayer” of sorts.

I first thanked it for showing me where I still have healing to do (life has a way of poking a stick in our wounds).

I then thanked my higher self for “calling it in” and orchestrating it SO PERFECTLY that I could not deny it any longer.

I acknowledged this is FOR ME, in that it’s preparing me for what I asked for. ..aka it needs to be resolved before I go any further.

I set an intention to address it in my kinesiology session on Monday and on my own until then.

. ..and so it is 🙏

I calmly re-engaged and was pleasantly surprised to find the situation had shifted in my favor.

The Red Sea parted and all the stars aligned, and I could now confidently complete the task, knowing I got exactly what I needed from the situation 🪷✨️

Roger universe 🫡

“Nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know.”

-Pema Chodron