The trade-off

“I accept the trade-off.”

This dropped in this morning while I was making my coffee, and I was amused to realize that it actually applies to several aspects of my life at the moment.

If you read the blog, you know that this is just kindve how it goes around here 🤷‍♀️

See, there’s a part of me that’s been arguing with reality a little bit, and I think she’s ready to lay her weapons down.

Long story short, in order to breathe out of my nose, I’ve had to make a little “twist face” to compensate for the deviated septum.” A few weeks ago, I became very concerned it was causing wrinkles around my mouth. I was frustrated because these aren’t lines I would’ve had otherwise (most likely), and because I only need to do it temporarily while the Myofascial Release helps heal my nose with the goal of avoiding surgery.

Since then, I’ve continued doing the face to keep my nose clear, but haven’t really accepted the potential consequences. I’ve also been promising myself that every time I do it is the last time 🤦‍♀️

This has resulted in me living in an in-between state of fear, denial, and hyperfixation. ..it’s not as fun as it sounds 🙃

I realized that being split, aka at war within myself, causes incongruence and usually creates more problems than the original thing.

So THAT is what I’m hoping will be resolved by my declaration.

Wouldn’t it be crazy if I just solved the whole thing!? Haha. ..perhaps acceptance was the key all along 🤔

To put it in terms of aging: usually the women that embrace it are the ones that don’t actually end up doing it 😳

Sidenote:
I also realized that by fighting the natural effects of living life, I’m also fighting my body and my femininity on some level.. .more to come on this!

In summary:
We create our own suffering when we argue with reality. We bargain, plead, and outright beg for things to be different than they are, with the belief that only then would we be happy/content/safe, etc.

The other trade-offs I’m working with are as follows:

• Saying the hard thing and upsetting people,
or even losing them

• The losses I’ve incurred while healing and
moving towards a more aligned life.

• The time/space and time/money
continuum of the earth plane lol (this one
just may be specific to me, and I’m 💯 okay
with that).

More to come 🙌✨️