Okay I’m wiped out from a long day + my first cycling class at the gym since 2018! I may be a little sore tomorrow, but it’s good to be back in the game 🏆
I usually write in the mornings, but I had my remote healing session with the shaman today (mentioned in yesterday’s entry).
Just as I suspected, she released three energetic cords and cleared three entities from my connection with the new person that I mentioned a few entries back. They were from a past life we had together and were acting to sabotage our relationship in this life.
From what I understand, the cords and entities were between us- manifesting differently in each person, but impacting our interactions nonetheless.
She said there was a lot of energetic interference between us, which makes so much sense when I look back on it. Like I said in the last entry, energetic cords make me feel dependent, enmeshed, and anxious.
I had a similar situation last summer with a man I was seeing in Asheville, but once we cleared the cords it felt better. Him and I ended shortly after that because we just weren’t a good fit for multiple reasons, but feeling the difference of us with cords vrs no cords was a valuable learning experience for me.
This time around, it’s not so straightforward. I feel really bad about the way everything happened, and even worse that there’s nothing I can do about it. It’s triggering some childhood things for me around needing to be heard and understood.
I am used to being calm, composed, and collected. Being those things helped me to not feel like I do right now, so maybe I will return to them!
This is all very new for me- even this style of blogging. Normally I hold off on writing about an experience until I’ve come through it- not when I’m still in it. I mean technically this situation is over, but I guess I’m still processing it.
Okay, that’s all I want to share for now.
Signing off ✌️
Anatomy of an Awakening 