Detox part 2

I didn’t expect to write a sequel so soon, but more thoughts surfaced after writing the original post yesterday, so here we are.

In keeping with the “death frequency” theme, I wanted to talk more about what led me to do the parasite cleanse and what my experience has been so far.

For several months I’d been feeling like various parts of my body were not on the same page. Following a traumatic event in March of 2020, I felt “glitchy,” and disjointed.

For example, since I was not ready or able to stop and process what happened, the “doer” side of me continued on full speed ahead, attempting to stay productive and check things off the to-do list; but behind the scenes was a different story.

By August I was barely digesting my food, and had lost half my hair. I was also frozen in my body and couldn’t be physically active to save my life. I had “stuck points” in my brain, and could tell where parts of it had seemingly gone offline when I got too close to the trauma.

Sidenote: I’d also concluded my 7 year career in the military around this time, had my second out of state move in 2 years, and lost a pet immediately upon arrival to NC 😞

So. ..yeah.

Despite all this, I would still look you in the eye and say I was fine- and even found myself unintentionally minimizing my concerns to my Functional Medicine Doctor, because I would much rather just avoid “sick talk” altogether, and just focus on fun things. It was incongruent and exhausting.

As I tuned into my body I began to feel like there felt like something was separate or “other than.”

As the time I wouldn’t have been surprised if I found a tumor to be honest- especially because my mom’s diagnosis had been seemingly out of nowhere, so I knew all about that.

The point is, it was time for ALL of me to get on the same team. I viewed it as a Shamanic Soul Retrieval in some ways, since there were certainly parts of me I’d left in the dust in the attempt to get to a place where my nervous system felt safe again.

It reminds me of the following Bible verse:

“. ..and if a house is divided against itself, that house cannot stand.”

Mark 3:25

So, back to the parasites: every living thing has a consciousness. It makes sense to me that a parasitic entity’s consciousness is extremely low. Their mere presence indicates conflict and opposition.

I felt like my body was a battlefield.

Fast forward to today where I’m right in the middle of the cleanse, and it’s been interesting to say the least.

I’ve been very emotional at times, and have had to remember that everything that surfaces is on it’s way OUT. ..gone are the days when I allow anything in my life or my body that isn’t 100% on my side.

At the beginning of the cleanse my dreams were erratic and tangential, with people from all phases of my life making cameo appearances. There were times when I was more exhausted after them than before laying down.

Also, occasionally when I would close my eyes (even during pockets of my day) my imagery was very harsh and jagged. There were dark colors like brown, black, and hunter green. It was not at all like my usual flowy internal landscape that resembled a watercolor painting with pastel colors.

What I was seeing was more like Ursula’s garden on The Little Mermaid, or the Elephant Graveyard on Lion King. ..yikes.

Thank goodness that phase passed, and now my dreams have so much light in them. For a few nights it was so bright that I couldn’t tell what was actually happening in the dream, and wondered if I was going to Heaven soon 🤔🤷‍♀️

This reminded me of what my acupuncturist Aradia in Asheville said about our light coming in as a result of the healing process: basically it pushes everything else out to make room for more of itself (paraphrase). I love that woman.

After doing the cleanse for a month now, my mood is very balanced and I feel more connected to nature and have more energy.

I’ll check in with Part 3 in a few weeks!

Photo: Little River, NC June 2021